im not in very good mood. i was until i remembered that today there is a party that a couple people i know are having and pretty much all of my friends are going, but of course i wasnt invited. they passed out invites a couple weeks ago at lunch and i was the only person at my table who didnt get one. i felt so humiliated. i am so sick of not getting invited to anything. im so tired... and then i was thinking (while listening to some depressing music of course), about how much i think my life sucks. my parents fight a lot and drink, they got in trouble with the law last summer, and their court dates are coming up soon, and they might go to jail for a few days. i know i will hate the 1 year anniversary of that fateful night in june last year... and the hard part is, my friends think they 'get' my homelife, but they dont. its nice that they try to understand, but theyd have to live my life to understand. when i was listening to music earlier, i was listening to stuff that is exactly how im feeling right now:
i just hate thinking bout this stuff. i dont know why i even bothered to post all this crap. im sorry for the long post. i dont even think this really helped, but i guess tomorrow ill find out if it did. =/
Alison, Dan, Ron, Jerry, and Barry: YOU GUYS ROCK!!!
That wasn't really nice of your "friends", rather insensitive and rude behavior I would say, and they don't really sound like "friends" at all to me. I am sure you didn't deserve being treated that way, no one does.
I hope the friends you have here can make up for that rotten treatment, at least until you can replace those other "friends".
Oh man oh man. I'm so sorry Mykal-Ann!! Ahh...you know you can talk to me!! :]
I know what it's like when it comes to the home life. No one kind of understands and it wasn't till a few years ago when I joined the AKUS team and met a few great people, who are now my best friends and I share my life with, just as they share theres, that I really opened up. I mean for a long time I just kind of gave up on talking to people cause no one understood and then honsetly, I met Erika. That's all that needs to be said.
You always need those few certain people you know will always be there for you, stay loyal, and understand.
I'm so sorry. I really am, and I do, I really do understand. I've learned the hard way when it came to certain things like this. Just don't let it bother you too much. It's a party...big whoop. Throw one yourself...heck...through an AKUS one!! :] My point is, I know it's upsetting, and I know it's hard, but realize, you're the better person. If they couldn't invite you, apparently they don't understand how great your friendship really is. Hey, their lose
Just know we are all always here for you!!
And I'm sorry my response is late!! I've had a few difficulties myself...
Last Edit: Jun 20, 2007 19:49:34 GMT -5 by akusfan14
I think back on that day and it's like I want to crawl under the chair...it was so bad.
I don't hardly know you, but I'd be willing to show you. I know a way to make you smile. Let me touch you for awhile.
I'm gonna ruin my black mascara. You're drinkin whiskey when it should be wine. You keep a-lookin' into that mirror. But to me you're lookin' really fine.